Till death do us part

I have decided that i will not, no, cannot, go on without Juliet. I cannot stand to live here without her. I do not know what i am supposed to do without her. Without her the hours seem like days and the nights, nights seem like weeks. I am unable to sleep soundly through the night anymore. I cannot stop thinking about Juliet for more than a moment, and in the moments when my mind is not with Juliet, my mind is with death. Not with Juliet's death, no, with my own. I want to die. I want to die only so i can be with Juliet. So i have made a plan. When i am under the cover of night, i will go back to the city of Verona, there i will go to the shop that i can get poison. Once i have this poison, i will go to the Capulet family grave. and once i am there, i will find my Juliet, wherever she may be, and i will drink my poison, and die there, next to my Juliet, so we will forever be together.

How can i go on without her?

Today, just when I had arrived here,  I received the news from one of my servants. They told me that my Juliet is dead. He saw her body at the funeral. This is the only reason I can to begin to believe this news. I do not want to believe it. I do not want to even begin to think that my Juliet is dead. They do not know what happened for sure, only that she passed during sleep. I can't believe that Juliet is gone. I cannot help but to wonder if she committed suicide. I only think this because of how i felt, and how i now feel, when i know that me and Juliet will never be together again. That she is gone from this world and i am alone here, without her, without my family. I don't know who i am supposed to turn to now. I almost feel that without Juliet, i have no reason to carry on. I don't know what i am supposed to do now.

Exiled

I killed Tybalt. I lost control. I lost sight of her. I lost sight of Juliet. What was I thinking? No, that's just it, I wasn't thinking, not even for a second. Because if i was, i would have stopped myself. I wouldn't have killed Tybalt, i would have kept control and thought about her. I would have thought about Juliet. I would have remembered why i had first ran into Tybalt. And i would have been able to stop myself. That I'm sure of. But now, now I'm exiled. Because i killed Tybalt, Juliet's cousin. I killed my own cousin in law. What a monster. I'm sure that's exactly what Juliet's thinking now. What a monster. Only a monster would do something like that. Now, I'll never see her again, I'll never see Juliet again because i lost it, i lost control, and now, now I've lost Juliet.

R.I.P Mercutio

I decided that i needed to tell some Montague about my and Juliet's marriage. I thought that i would be able to trust Mercutio and Benvolio to keep my secret. Even though Mercutio is not a Montague, he is my dear friend, and he is not a Capulet, so i thought that my secret would be safe with him. So when i went to see Mercutio and Benvolio, I instead discovered Tybalt. I first thought that he would not be of any trouble to me, and he did not know of my and Juliet's marriage. But i was mistaken. Tybalt was very angry at me for crashing the Capulet's ball, and he was not only seeking revenge on me, but he was seeking revenge on Mercutio and Benvolio for the fight that took place at the market on Sunday. When Tybalt first encountered me, he was very violent. He was trying to hurt Mercutio. I stepped in between him and Mercutio, so no one would be hurt and i refused to fight back. But Tybalt was not going to give up. There were several other Capulet there, and he decided that taking me out would be the easiest way to achieve his overall revenge. Once i was unconscious, i don't remember much. But i do remember getting back up and trying once again to step in between them. The nest thing i remember, Mercutio is lying dead behind me. and I'm enraged, unable to control myself.

Just Married

Juliet and I were married, just this afternoon, here, in Verona, at Friar Lawrence's  cell. I am so ecstatic, No one knows of our marriage except the Friar and Juliet's nurse. I don't know who we will tell and when or how we will tell them. I only wish to be happy with Juliet forever. I think that Juliet plans to tell her parents latter today, and i am thinking that if she is going to tell her parents, i also need to tell mine. I only hope that both of our families will be able to accept the news and put aside there differences and be able to see the love that Juliet and I have for each other. If worst comes to worst, i figure that our families will end up in a fight, and i have made plans for me and Juliet to leave the city of Verona, so we will be safe together. I just hope that our marriage will not cost anyone their life.

to be married

I went last night back to the Capulet's home to see Juliet. I snuck away from Benvolio and Mercutio. I was waiting outside a window and balcony, wishing on the moon when i heard the voice of my Juliet. First it was soft, and i could hardly hear her, i was only able to pick out bits and pieces of what she was saying, but i did pick out Romeo once or twice. Then it got louder, she spoke to the moon as well. I remember clearly, she asked it "O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?Deny thy father and refuse thy name;Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love
And I'll no longer be a Capulet." I almost gave in here, and spoke back to her, but before i was able to think of what to say, she continued, "'Tis but thy name that is my enemy:Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.
What's Montague? It is nor hand nor foot,Nor arm nor face, nor any other part Belonging to a man. O be some other name! What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other word would smell as sweet; So Romeo would, were he not Romeo called, Retain that dear perfection which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, and for thy name, which is no part of thee,Take all myself." this is when i knew that i was in love with her. I was in love with Juliet, and i was almost sure she was in love with me as well. So i talked to her, i talked up to her on her balcony, and i went up to her. and we kissed and we talked. and i told her that i loved her, and she told me she loved me too. and when i told her i swore on the moon, she told me not to, because the moon is inconsistent. She told me that if i still felt the same way in the morning, i was to send a letter by ten to tell her that i wanted to marry her. so i left, and i went and got approval from Friar Lawrence for the marriage. Me and Juliet are to be married this afternoon at the Friar's cell. I am so happy to finally be united with my love in marriage, i cannot wait till this afternoon.

I had never seen true beauty until this night

Tonight, when i was at the Capulet's ball, and looking for Rosalyn, i saw a girl, from across the room. She was the most beautiful girl i have ever seen. While i was looking at her, i took of my mask for only a moment to see Tybalt, standing there he recognized me right away, and i thought for sure i was busted, but i was not going to leave the ball with out knowing this girls name, so i knew my time was limited, and i needed to work fast. Once i caught her, it was easy. We kissed, and then she had to go with her mother, away. but i can tell you something, her name is Juliet Capulet, and i hope that i will see her again so that i can talk to her. I would do anything to see her again.

Crashing the Capulet's party

Today, just when i was sure that i would never get Rosalyn back,a man named Peter came up to me and asked me if i was able to read, at first i thought that thins was a strange request, but still,  I told him i was, and i read of a party tonight at the Capulet's. I think that maybe, Rosalyn will be there tonight, and if i am able to get in, maybe i will be able to talk to her, and maybe if she sees me, and i am able to talk to her, and tell her how i love her and how i was stupid to let her go, she will change her mind and take me back. I can only pray that this plan will work, and i will be able to get Rosalyn back. So Benvolio, Mercutio and I are going to go to it tonight and crash it. I hope that i will be successful and i will be able to get Rosalyn back.

Rosalyn, my love

Why did i ever let her go? Rosalyn is gone, and now that I'm in retrospect, id do anything to have her back.  I thought that if i let her go, it would make her want to come back to me. Want to come back to us, but no, she doesn't. I think that letting her go was the biggest mistake i could have ever made. Because now instead of wanting to come back, she wants more than anything just to be free, and I want more than anything just to have her back. I miss Rosalyn so much, i wish that i could find some way to get her back. I don't know what i am supposed to do without her. I miss her, and i love her, and she is the only girl for me, i just need to get her back. I would do anything to get her back. i am so depressed without her, i love her.

I bite my thumb at you, sir

Today, when i was away at the water, i heard from my father and Mercutio there was a big quarrel between the Montague's and the Capulet's. Mercutio told me that he and Benvolio started it, and that it all started when Benvolio bit his thumb in the middle of the market, not meaning it to anyone specifically, but when the Capulet's came by and saw it, they thought it was to them, and that's where it all began. I have not yet been down by the market where the fight took place, but i hear that it is quite the mess and that the Prince told my father that if our family's fight disturb the peace of the city once more we will pay with our lives. I pray that our families will be able to put there differences aside and stop fighting. It has gotten to the place where it is silly and foolish.